First, if You are into theatre and the Performing Arts You may continue to read this blog; if You're not, You'd better forget about it and leave right now - You won't be blamed! ;)
Second, I'm probably meant to introduce my self at this stage - I'll try and be brief... Something like 30ish years ago I was a teenager who enjoyed amateur drama within a parish church group. With this group, we staged a few musicals/recitals, even scripted one adapting it from a book by Richard Bach. We used to have lot of fun but most of all it was a fantastic way to express and release our creativity through bringing to life stories, with which people - us first - could sympathise! I would have wanted to carry on since I often had he chance to choreograph but something distracted me along the way and I strayed completely from what should have been my life path (or always was!)
When You leave something undone or unsolved in Your life, it'll stay in a limbo state until it finally catches up with You again: it's up to You to complete it or not; in fact, You can do various things with it, but I won't explore all the available chances at this stage - You might want to add up to this point, instead, and tell me if this has happened to You, too, and what You did!
As far as I'm concerned, no matter how much I ignored that those skills were always there, deep inside of me, deeply entrenched in my very Soul, they'd always re-appear unexpectedly, and it hurt! It hurt to see how much time I'd wasted... So during my mid-life crisis, occurred not so long ago (phewww... been there, done that!) something shifted along with much of my awareness of what I had left unsolved: I decided I didn't want to live (and leave) with regrets, so I enrolled in an A Level Performing Arts course in Milton Keynes, just for the fun of it, and studied in a safe, enjoyable and empowering environment.
I should probably add here that the course was organised in 2006 by ACE Adult Learning and was run in Wolverton, MK, by the amazing Rosemary Hill. I gained an overall B and and A in my examined performance, which should have been enough to understand where I was coming from and in what direction I ought to go! Still, life with its commitments strongly directed me toward a different direction, despite joining Rosemary's theatre company after the course, attending master classes (even an audition in London at the Birbeck College for a course in Foundation Studies in Dance) and taking Modern Dance classes at a local school of dance for a while, which gave me the opportunity to re-explore dance on a more serious level.
I felt content, that type of contentedness You feel when You're ready to compromise and settle for less, for little, but know deep inside that You're much more than that, that You're worth a lot more... Anyone out there acquainted with this feeling? Please tell me more...
Anyway, things didn't seem to work in any of these cases and I had to compromise even more, mostly about money and other commitments that I've always put before me... Bloody money! How much has it ruined in Your own life?
The funny thing is that the more You move away from what You're meant to be or do, the deepest it goes inside of You - You even start dreaming about it, Your unconscious mind keeps reminding You even if You run away or hide, scared... No, it cannot be, that can't be my life, I'm not that brave, I'm not that clever... It works as a magnet!
Now, I have written a script, an original script! I found a co-director (who even wants me to extend it because "it's too short!"), a choreographer and a graphic designer... I have the most amazing local talents on board, because after all it is an art community project that will bring together so much local artistic talent! It is set to be a fantastic project, the most exciting creative project I've ever produced - after my children, of course - and it feels great, it feels I'm finally coming full circle, I'm finally coming home!
More to come...
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